Just what should I specialise in

3 years ago I set my eyes on getting a Communication major

because I've always been interested in the very essence of communications.

A year later I found my fascination in advertising

so much that whenever I read magazines,

I never failed to scrutinise each advert,

laugh at how dumbed-down some were, 

and marvel at the ingenuity of others.

Last year, I finally stepped foot into my dream school,

took a couple of general mods and a few other advertising mods.

And found out that the advertising route may not be what I truly want after all.

Just how fickle am I.

I've never seen myself as a future news journalist either,

I don't enjoy covering news stories and I've never been into current affairs.

What I fear most is having to cover tragic accidents and attend funerals

while coaxing stories out of grieving family members.

Seriously, I will never be able to do that.

I've been wondering ever since then just which path belongs to me.

Until a couple days ago, 

I was randomly mind mapping a list of things I love doing -

Writing + travel + photography

Then it struck me that this is the perfect combination

to be a travel photojournalist.

I love writing, but I hate having my writings judged and graded.

Which is why I've always found it incredibly stressful in media writing classes.

But I've decided to stray out of my comfort zone this time

and take up a news writing mod here in Europe.

I've heard about seniors carrying out their internships in Pakistan and Nepal currently.

While I'm not sure if I have the flair and passion

to risk health and safety for a job like that,

it sure sounds much more attractive than a desk bound 9-5 job,

even a high-paying one.

Then again, covering riots and social unrest isn't quite my thing.

It'd be awesome to write for national geographic though.

Hmm, travel, nature, photog, writing.

Heaven.

Hahaha I'm best at day dreaming really.

I figured that since I don't really know what I want,

I must well try everything out then at least I'd know what I don't like.

A step at a time is what I'm taking.

As for now, it's writing class.

I'll probably be interning at one of our chinese radio stations when I'm back,

just to get a hang of it.

I'd very much wish to keep every post short and sweet,

but like you, I just need to rant sometimes.