Played out

9am. In Sweden. Wide awake.

Thinking through a decision many cannot fathom

or may even disapprove of.

All my life I've made unpopular decisions. 

I've never been a crowd follower.

I know what I want.

And I've never been understood for that.

I don't give explanations.

Yet I tried today, 

but it didn't seem to make anything better.

Which makes me wonder why I even tried.

You know why.

It's silly huh.

Sometimes I really wonder why I even sank so deep

for something that's not even worth a tenth of my efforts.

I've been through a phase where I was lost and deluded.

But I'm over it and I know what I want now.

Like you said,

there're some friends we should let go of when the time comes.

There's no point in holding onto and cherishing someone

when he/she doesn't see you the same way.

At last, you've played me out.

From I song I wrote but never did play for you:

My eyes are sore but from your wisdom I've grown,

Still, I'm sicka chasing you.